Animation by joy
When I just stepped in to the year of 2012,
the sign of challenge has appeared at the beginning. As what I had expected
from last year, this year is going to be my crazy year. Crazy means not to be
crazy for real but it regards to the big challenges coming this year to test my
real capabilities. It had its first came in the beginning. It was all about New
Home progress which is being one of my successful plans now. But, to outdo this
challenge, I have been through a lot of troubles in the early 2012 such as being
cheated by the contractor, spent out half of my annual leave to monitor the progress
of renovation, painting works and budget management. However, the meant project
had been succeeding at 98% but the big mistake incurred when the budget is
exceeded from what it supposed to. Therefore, the following months later the
self financial has been affected and challenges have more coming without
failed. I need to stabilize back the situation.
Previously, I let myself being controlled
by the numeric motivational figure called the 27. At least, it was about 50% -
60% achievement I had compared to the few years back which only afforded as
higher as 30%. Now, I still need something like that again to push myself
forward since the entering of 2012. My mistake was to have myself being
survived without any motivational plans and since then, my achievement was
decreased drastically. The reason of this lost is cause by poor of attitude, discipline,
faith and no awareness. But, this plan 27 is too far from what I have expected
because it could control me at one side and the other side is waived. Other
side I meant is only about financial management and future planning. That is
another challenge comes onto me and yet I have no clues how figure it out to outdo
it at this moment. I am no longer need to sketch the structure plan, what I
need is chances, awareness and action. Other than that, are not really
important.
I am blogging for myself since year of
2009, the domain have been changed 3 times and at last I have decided to
remained with the word of “ceciter.blogspot”. The meaning of this word has been
told here at few entries back. Actually, I still can feel that to be a blogger
is not worthy as much as a time I spent to post the entries. It is all about my
personal conflict and to be aware of it, there is no other internet users are
really interested to read about blogger’s background unless the bloggers have
been created something unique about them as well as their pages which have turn
them to be famous to the public’s eyes. But, in the other angle of my view,
although it is not worth for me economically, some other improvements could be
seen here. Knowledge, writing skills, the thinking ways and acknowledgement,
these are the things that I worked for all this while. The earliest entry here
has told about it already. The general objective of this blog is improving me
internally and externally. Now, the new challenge has applied here and this is
one of it.
2012 is my first full year of being husband
and father together. The responsibilities are the most important for me to take
care. This is another challenge and task for me to monitor thus I can afford to
outdo any possibility later. It touches about financial matters, marriage, love
and parental. My own financial management is nearly killed me and already in
full of distress mode. Fortunately, I am so glad that I am still can stand on
my own feet with support of my wife. The understanding and helpful really worked
in our marriage and the love is not wasted since year of 2010. As a father, I
need to act more mature to make any decisions wisely. Future planning for
family is must not left a side, this is about filling the right answer of
possibilities to our blank future. What should accompany my daughter growth and
what things I left for her?
When talked about financial matters, the
most related into it is the carrier that I involved. Building my carrier more
than 10 years as a banker seems like set to the limit already. The company
transformed their business structure and does affect the positive growth of
staff relationship and carrier opportunities. They are making a lot of money
for the top people only. Currently, the lower grade staffs including me are
fighting for the right by united in one roof of association. I make it clear
here, we are not against the company who paid us wages but we are on the
strained with the people who act like the company, actually they are same with
us. What differentiate us are the several of grades in the organization itself.
The dispute is really change the carrier environment and working as a banker
today is not same as previous time. The obsession of the high rank position, demand
of respect from lower grade, being famous among others, the power of command
and professionalism are the staunchly reasons in the making of the dreary
office environment. I loved working as a banker and I described it as a second
home but to be honest for all, love happened a couple of years ago until the
environment has changed drastically. It is not only happened to me, other
people as same as non-executive level feel the same. Almost all of them are not
happy anymore. For me, I feel like being trapped in the middle of giant Transformers
and I am nowhere to go since I could not turn right or left to escape. The only
thing that I can do to escape is transform myself as big as they are. If I
don’t do it then I will be trapped here forever. This is one of the challenges
coming this year. No, it is already happening.
Chances may not come too frequent in our
live. If we just feel it, view it and examine it to no end, we absolutely will lose
it in the very fast moment and then to be waited for another chances probably
quite a long time to appear again. It is true that we need to make a right
decision in order to avoid any losses occur in the future, but we are more
encouraged to be particular in running decision a long with positive thought
and risks fairly. The two most important things to apply here are the fast
think and the right choice. I already had these two elements in the way of
deciding reside in my plan 27 and so far, it works in least of case’s
percentage (the27 timeline). However, there are few cases that I failed to make
a right decision and grabbed wrong opportunity. There are countless of mistakes
and losses occurred in few years back.
In this matter, challenge meant here is relate to the plan 27 which is
running internally and the objective to outdo this challenge is to be someone
who affords to stand by his own decision. Get strong the principle and core it
towards every single of action.
The summary of entire content for this post
title is mostly about financial matter (future planning). I have put up the
target for this year’s challenges as minimum as to break an egg. That is supposed
to be a good starter for the momentum. In the middle of the year, I have
started in many kinds of small businesses just to seek more and more chances to
evaluate. I am exposing myself to the risks and this is the major challenge of
the year. If I fail means the real and big failure in my life will occur and
drive me to the any possibilities thought. This matter is looks like serious
things and actually it is more than that.
