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Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. I pray to Allah and live relying to Allah along with efforts and actions. I am here in the end of March 2013 and also 4th anniversary of this blog. I am living peacefully although there is still a bit stress in few things. What make my life steady and cool are because of the principle that I keep holding up until now. The principle is the basic things that mostly relates to Islam, healthy lifestyle and humble. Since early of this year, I had myself focus on the internal development and polishing my solat in order to get reflection to daily life. At this moment, I am in learning progress and it will no end of it. I am recording every single of effort but not writing diary. That is for my references and also for my own way of being motivated all the time. Currently, I am using Trello apps to jot down any new info, golden words, action to be taken, the follow up, routine tasks, plan and blueprints, evaluations, reminders, outcomes and achievements. By the way and honestly my achievement not performed well yet but it had positive improvements. I am telling about myself here just for my own goodness and it may becomes useful for me in future.
The big dreams need a massive action and extraordinary efforts. That is really strong words for me to keep in mind, to think, to plan and to execute. I know it alao has power of bringing changes to someone's life. So, I choose Trello to managing all tasks (card).
Other than that, nothing more and nothing else to be written here since I am playing cards in Trello. It is such an amazing apps. Check it out in Apple Store.

Akhira

Alhamdulillah! It is beautiful friday for me. The date 22/2 is my memorable date for me. My wife was delivered safely our second princess with 3.1kg at Ar Ridzuan Medical Centre. The born of Puteri Nur Akhirah or Puteri Akhiratul Hasanah (not confirm yet) will definitely strenghten our family bond. The first is Aliya sure happy having sister Akhira now. It shows that the seriousness of becoming better family leader, after already having 2 princesses to take care. What happened to me now is one of really big gift from Allah SWT and I am aware about the responsibility. I have wife, daughters, commitments and responsibility. Most important also, I still have father and mother to take care. So, I won't waste any of them. To Aliya & Akhira - I love both of you. - Ayah 22/2/2013.

Rough path

A'haa!! Salam all,
As we know, we are already in the end of year or end of our vision of the year. I am gonna update myself about all things happened and affects towards 2013. I'd said this year my crazy year but it seems goes really hard for me to handle and might reflects to my next vision especially in 2013. The challenges carry forward to 2013 and it will be more craziest ever after and BRAVE is my core value to overcome any possibilities.
I made tough decision for my future and now it shows path that I choose gonna be rough. If I scared means I have decided the wrong thing. Now, 2013 is quite a long time for me prove it that I deserve both world as long as I won't let the basic one left a side.
2012 that I have been through is really tough for me as my responsibilities going up more than 200%. Other people don't realized about this because I still can acting and stay cool but pain served me internally. Who knows!! The challenges I bring forward next year is pumping me awarenesses, bravery, courage and shameful towards Allah S.W.T. Sentap!

The White Dot

Salam all. Firstly, it is again about the journey of this year. 2012 is soon to be end. The progress of 12 months here really challenging for me and yet it will be more and more next year. I had myself Enough in non-productive things infact for real it was easy to speak it out but hard to execute. It shows that I am still weak and lack of exposure, knowledge as well as experience. After many years, I admit that I could not make it yet. What is actually that I am looking for? I thought it is about money but actually not at all.

Crazy year for me as I mentioned in early post this year, it changed my character, life style and scope of responsibility. I am totally different in many years back because of that. But, one thing that I still being trapped and don't know how to move out from that circle. It is the non-beneficial activities that never react positively towards my life momentum. I am thinking and doing something without any clear intensives and definitely it drives me to no where. And that is why and where I stucked now.

I am returning myself, mysoul, my heart to the where it belongs. I start all over again and always trying to be a good human. Awarenesses are there but I could not turn up, turn down, left or right and trapped deeper and deeper inside until it strains me. "YA ALLAH, show me the correct way".

Before I sleep, I will always thinking where my soul, heart, mind go while I am sleeping? And I woke up everyday with same me, same soul, heart and mind. But how long for that? It is something that need to sit at calm situation and pray for/to Allah S.W.T. Life is not forever but death is confirmed. Where am I when death is happen? What should I do if I already know the answer? Actually, I am thinking about death. I will die in anytime and no one can escape it. So, what is my preparation for that?

"Hendaklah tiap-tiap orang memerhatikan apa yang diusahakannya untuk esok (hari khiamat)."
(Surah al- Hasyr : 18)

Brave 2013

It's already December. Time is not been fast from usual but sometime because of busy, rush for something or ignorance of the time itself making us fall to that feeling. Like me, definitely rush for something and it drives me to feel such a time is not enough to accomplish my plan. Maybe it because of delaying things to make it happen. I,myself set length of the plan to be execute being due too long until certain period I called it the cut of time has come near and later I feel like time is moving fast from the beginning but actually it did not. Delaying something is killing our time. Thus, it is better to realize the meaning of "the power of NOW".
Knowledge is huge reflection towards an action, without knowledge we cannot go any further or act more than usual. It doesn't matter if you are still at where you are now. It means you neither I have not enough knowledge to execute something. So, get out from now on and gain knowledge in anything you think that can change your life in 360 as a whole. When you are getting full of your quota in your head, you may or will be more brave to apply it practically and that is your first move as well. Thus, I think it would be expand your quota as well as action to change. I believe, knowledge is moving people.
I don't want to label myself as a loser or failure but I believe myself still lack of knowledge thus it reflects to my action. I am learning in my ways now. Few things back were accomplished at my side and it did changed my life style. I am telling the truth of myself, I did learn something and I am done something. Actually I had huge stepped forward and I need more huge step and I really need that indeed.
I am writing for my personal improvement, I learn something and then I apply it here. It could be the best way for me to keep the momentum rather than doing nothing and hoping so much things. This is one of the plan that I succeed and yet still ongoing.
This year 2012 is going to end soon, lot of things still pending. Am I going to drag again to another year? Of course for me "enough is enough". Nevertheless, I had experienced so many things this year and I learn a lot of things as well. My entries here are mostly regards to the personal achievement and read the earlier blog entries show the comparison between old post and new post onwards. Am I getting more confidence to blogging or still afraid to share? As long as it has showed up an improvement day by day, month by month and year by year. Nothing is wasted.
The wake up alarm is always ON and I am aware about my time management. Time is not fast but the more delay on execution of whatever I planned is the more it has occupied onto the timeline of the whole plan. In the end, it end up with overloaded and down "In the Afternoon & not even reached evening" yet. I mean doing things half way again. By the way, I am looking forward to work harder in 2013. The theme of 2013 for me is "BRAVE". InsyaAllah.

2012 challenges

 

Animation by joy

When I just stepped in to the year of 2012, the sign of challenge has appeared at the beginning. As what I had expected from last year, this year is going to be my crazy year. Crazy means not to be crazy for real but it regards to the big challenges coming this year to test my real capabilities. It had its first came in the beginning. It was all about New Home progress which is being one of my successful plans now. But, to outdo this challenge, I have been through a lot of troubles in the early 2012 such as being cheated by the contractor, spent out half of my annual leave to monitor the progress of renovation, painting works and budget management. However, the meant project had been succeeding at 98% but the big mistake incurred when the budget is exceeded from what it supposed to. Therefore, the following months later the self financial has been affected and challenges have more coming without failed. I need to stabilize back the situation.

Previously, I let myself being controlled by the numeric motivational figure called the 27. At least, it was about 50% - 60% achievement I had compared to the few years back which only afforded as higher as 30%. Now, I still need something like that again to push myself forward since the entering of 2012. My mistake was to have myself being survived without any motivational plans and since then, my achievement was decreased drastically. The reason of this lost is cause by poor of attitude, discipline, faith and no awareness. But, this plan 27 is too far from what I have expected because it could control me at one side and the other side is waived. Other side I meant is only about financial management and future planning. That is another challenge comes onto me and yet I have no clues how figure it out to outdo it at this moment. I am no longer need to sketch the structure plan, what I need is chances, awareness and action. Other than that, are not really important.

I am blogging for myself since year of 2009, the domain have been changed 3 times and at last I have decided to remained with the word of “ceciter.blogspot”. The meaning of this word has been told here at few entries back. Actually, I still can feel that to be a blogger is not worthy as much as a time I spent to post the entries. It is all about my personal conflict and to be aware of it, there is no other internet users are really interested to read about blogger’s background unless the bloggers have been created something unique about them as well as their pages which have turn them to be famous to the public’s eyes. But, in the other angle of my view, although it is not worth for me economically, some other improvements could be seen here. Knowledge, writing skills, the thinking ways and acknowledgement, these are the things that I worked for all this while. The earliest entry here has told about it already. The general objective of this blog is improving me internally and externally. Now, the new challenge has applied here and this is one of it.

 

2012 is my first full year of being husband and father together. The responsibilities are the most important for me to take care. This is another challenge and task for me to monitor thus I can afford to outdo any possibility later. It touches about financial matters, marriage, love and parental. My own financial management is nearly killed me and already in full of distress mode. Fortunately, I am so glad that I am still can stand on my own feet with support of my wife. The understanding and helpful really worked in our marriage and the love is not wasted since year of 2010. As a father, I need to act more mature to make any decisions wisely. Future planning for family is must not left a side, this is about filling the right answer of possibilities to our blank future. What should accompany my daughter growth and what things I left for her?

When talked about financial matters, the most related into it is the carrier that I involved. Building my carrier more than 10 years as a banker seems like set to the limit already. The company transformed their business structure and does affect the positive growth of staff relationship and carrier opportunities. They are making a lot of money for the top people only. Currently, the lower grade staffs including me are fighting for the right by united in one roof of association. I make it clear here, we are not against the company who paid us wages but we are on the strained with the people who act like the company, actually they are same with us. What differentiate us are the several of grades in the organization itself. The dispute is really change the carrier environment and working as a banker today is not same as previous time. The obsession of the high rank position, demand of respect from lower grade, being famous among others, the power of command and professionalism are the staunchly reasons in the making of the dreary office environment. I loved working as a banker and I described it as a second home but to be honest for all, love happened a couple of years ago until the environment has changed drastically. It is not only happened to me, other people as same as non-executive level feel the same. Almost all of them are not happy anymore. For me, I feel like being trapped in the middle of giant Transformers and I am nowhere to go since I could not turn right or left to escape. The only thing that I can do to escape is transform myself as big as they are. If I don’t do it then I will be trapped here forever. This is one of the challenges coming this year. No, it is already happening.

Chances may not come too frequent in our live. If we just feel it, view it and examine it to no end, we absolutely will lose it in the very fast moment and then to be waited for another chances probably quite a long time to appear again. It is true that we need to make a right decision in order to avoid any losses occur in the future, but we are more encouraged to be particular in running decision a long with positive thought and risks fairly. The two most important things to apply here are the fast think and the right choice. I already had these two elements in the way of deciding reside in my plan 27 and so far, it works in least of case’s percentage (the27 timeline). However, there are few cases that I failed to make a right decision and grabbed wrong opportunity. There are countless of mistakes and losses occurred in few years back.  In this matter, challenge meant here is relate to the plan 27 which is running internally and the objective to outdo this challenge is to be someone who affords to stand by his own decision. Get strong the principle and core it towards every single of action.

                                              

The summary of entire content for this post title is mostly about financial matter (future planning). I have put up the target for this year’s challenges as minimum as to break an egg. That is supposed to be a good starter for the momentum. In the middle of the year, I have started in many kinds of small businesses just to seek more and more chances to evaluate. I am exposing myself to the risks and this is the major challenge of the year. If I fail means the real and big failure in my life will occur and drive me to the any possibilities thought. This matter is looks like serious things and actually it is more than that. 

The 27 update

Part 9

Few days more to celebrate Eid. This year preparation is quite big as I'm gonna celebrate it with new love, Aliya, new home, new hometown, new car and few other things which is new for me. Although all the newest come together into the Eid, I'm upset with what I've done in Ramadhan this year as myself seems like having very poor of intensive, awareness, actions or performances and the failure of time managing to get myself closer with Allah S.W.T. When come to the end of Ramadhan, I'll calculate the percentage of performance from what I've recorded in all days of the Ramadhan Month in order to build self awareness and action to be taken. 2 years back, if I afford to reached above the bench mark, but this year it is sad to say that it might be below that. Don't know where were wrong. I always wanted to make Ramadhan is my month of turning point as well as the starter and remain the momentum until the next Ramadhan. The graph went down drastically and for sure life is going harder. Since the performance is below from what it supposed to be, it posses a small momentum as my stock to live a year until the next check point (Ramadhan). From here, I know that I'm still weak as the more comfort I'm the more of ignorance in myself.

Meteor in my head

 Today, is 27th July, beautiful Friday night in Ramadhan and also my 29th birthday. This year I already have my daughter to be celebrate together hence she is not yet reach her 1 year age. Puteri Nur Aliya, my daughter which also going to have maybe sister or maybe brother in next coming year.
  Yeah!! Time passing fast until sometime we didn't realized where were we. The moment we had aware about time, there is some small momentum in our mindset, spiritual and action. We feel that we left something behind and try to find it because we realized that time is fast and short. Any waste of it will cause us regret in future. It is similar to me as I am always aware about my time and what I did for myself at the past. I convincing myself not to regret about old days, what left behind is something that can be used as a lesson and guide. The most important now is what I do today is determine pattern of my tomorrow.
   I am nearly the zone of 30 but before that, I want to try my luck in something Huge transformation which is already in progress. I don't know I can survive or not but if I never try means I will never know forever. This time I want to focus at one thing only since I aware that my mistake in previous action was do so many things in one time. Yet I was really young in everything I had myself involved.
    I wish to let them know about this, even though I rejected a great offer or one opportunity that come in my life once a while, it doesn't means that I already erased my better future. But, never mind, it is not worth at all. Let me decide for myself because I have so many experiences enough to covered raised up of WHY. Standing on my own feet is better than getting lifted on their feet. I am not selfish but I know what I am capable for and I know what is the best for myself. They judged people by their experience but not according to what is the owner of the body have been through in their past. When age become older, all things become sensitive and yet I am late of 20 not 18 anymore.
    This post is spontaneous typing as mind, heart and finger exchange data in really fast and high bit of transfer value. So, the contents is quite simple and short. I just want to share what is inside my head in my birthday night as the crossing meteor in the dark sky in the night of July, 27th. But, please don't make a wish.

Fadhilat Ramadhan

Salam,

Tinggal beberapa hari sahaja lagi, kita bakal menyambut bulan Ramadhan Al-Mubarak. Bagaimana persiapan anda untuk merainya pada tahun ini? Seperti biasanya, aku tidaklah beriye-iye memikirkan perihal Aidilfitri terlebih dahulu kerana ianya terlalu awal disambut. Aku lebih mengutamakan kedatangan Ramadhan kerana setiap tahun akan ada penilaian keatas diri sendiri bagi mengenalpasti impak selama setahun daripada Ramadhan yang lepas-lepas. Ini adalah inisiatif sendiri selain penilaian dari Allah S.W.T. Penilaian ini dibuat bagi mengenal pasti kekurangan dan kesilapan yang telah dilakukan dan Ramadhan adalah bulan yang paling sesuai untuk semua itu. Ramadhan juga ibarat check point bagi aku dan setiap hentian itu akan dinilai lalu di naik tarafkan. Ini adalah cara aku tersendiri memprogram keseluruhan diri aku. Semoga Allah S.W.T memberkati segala usaha ini.

Ramadhan adalah bulan yang indah dalam Islam dan juga bulan di mana kita diwajibkan berpuasa dan digalakkan melebihkan amalan-amalan ibadah yang sunat supaya kita dapat memperoleh berlipat kali ganda pahalanya. Oleh itu, marilah kita hayati bersama fadhilat Ramadhan yang bakal tiba nanti.

Hadith 1

Abu Hurairah ra. meriwayatkan bahawa Rasulullah SAW bersabda: "Umatku telah dikurniakan dengan lima perkara yang istimewa yang belum pernah diberikan kepada sesiapa pun sebelum mereka. Bau mulut daripada seorang Islam yang berpuasa adalah terlebih harum di sisi Allah daripada bau haruman kasturi. Ikan-ikan di lautan memohon istighfar (keampunan) ke atas mereka sehinggalah mereka berbuka puasa".

Allah mempersiapkan serta menghiasi jannah yang khas setiap hari dan kemudian berfirman kepadanya: "Masanya telah hampir tiba bilamana hamba-hambaKu yang taat akan meninggalkan segala halangan-halangan yang besar (di dunia) dan akan mendatangimu."

Pada bulan ini syaitan-syaitan yang durjana dirantaikan supaya tidak menggoda mereka ke arah maksiat-maksiat yang biasa mereka lakukan pada bulan-bulan selain Ramadhan. Pada malam terakhir Ramadhan (orang-orang yang berpuasa ini) akan diampunkan." Maka sahabat-sahabat Rasulullah SAW pun bertanya: "Wahai Pesuruh Allah, adakah itu malam lailatul Qadar?" Dijawab oleh Rasulullah SAW: "Tidak, tetapi selayaknya seorang yang beramal itu diberi balasan setelah menyempurnakan tugasnya."

Hadith 2

Ubadah Bin Somit ra. meriwayatkan bahawa Rasulullah SAW bersabda pada suatu hari ketika Ramadhan hampir menjelang: "Telah datang kepadamu bulan Ramadhan, di mana Allah melimpah ruahkan di dalamnya dengan keberkatan, menurunkan rahmat, mengampuni dosa-dosa kamu, memakbulkan doa-doa kamu, melihat di atas perlumbaan kamu untuk memperolehi kebaikan yang besar dan berbangga mengenaimu di hadapan malaikat-malaikat. Maka tunjukkanlah kepada Allah Taala kebaikan dari kamu. Sesungguhnya orang yang bernasib malang ialah dia yang dinafikan daripada rahmat Allah pada bulan ini."

Hadith 3

Abu Sa'id Al Khudri ra. meriwayatkan bahawa Rasulullah SAW bersabda: "Setiap hari siang dan malam pada bulan Ramadhan, Allah Tabaraka wa Taala membebaskan begitu banyak sekali roh daripada api neraka. Dan pada setiap orang Islam pada setiap hari siang dan malam doanya pasti akan diterima."

Hadith 4

Abu Hurairah ra. meriwayatkan bahawa Rasulullah SAW bersabda: "Terdapat tiga jenis orang yang doa mereka tidak ditolak; doa daripada orang yang berpuasa sehinggalah dia berbuka puasa; imam (penguasa) yang adil, dan orang yang dizalimi yang kerana doanya itu Allah mengangkatnya melepasi awan dan membuka untuknya pintu-pintu langit dan Allah berfirman: "Daku bersumpah demi kemuliaanKu, sesungguhnya Daku pasti menolongmu walaupun pada suatu masa nanti."

Hadith 5

Ibn Umar ra. meriwayatkan bahawa Rasulullah SAW bersabda: "Sesungguhnya Allah dan para malaikatNya mengirim rahmat ke atas mereka yang memakan sahur."

Hadith 6

Abu Hurairah ra. meriwayatkan bahawa Rasulullah SAW bersabda: "Barangsiapa berbuka satu hari di siang hari bulan Ramadhan tanpa alasan yang wajar (disegi syariah) atau sakit yang kuat, tidak akan dapat menampung atau mengganti hari tersebut walaupun akan berpuasa sehingga ke akhir hayatnya."

Aliya

After long time here and I haven't post any further about my baby beautiful light princess Aliya since september 2011 last year. She's going to enter 9th month already. Time has brought us very fast. She is growing faster and healthy. Her cute face is now become my remedy. She is my everything. What she can do now is clap, climb, cry, creep, catch and bubbyee that are so cute.

Dare to be blogger

Why am I continuously posting this blog? The contents sometime are not relate to the current issues. I can say here is touched more on personal conflicts. Yes! I admit it. This blog is only good for me to read it as references. Not to other people. Who could share it is an extra of value itself (the blog). I am applying my ideas, view of angles, opinions and outcomes here while I am inserting an extra efforts in every single of post such as improving English writing, know new words, be dare to post openly and reveal mistakes in order to get solutions. This is how my blog is working for me. The contents might give less info compare to other blogs, but it is actually returning something worth to me. The confident, improvement and consistent. Many people outside there are shameful to create their own blog just because they are nothing to share or don't know how to write better or don't even know how to start. Some of them, they don't blogging because they are too good and for them sharing here is waste of time. They are good, it doesn't matter but I am not that good so that's why I am blogging. Blogging for myself. Those who want to be a blogger, you'll can be now. Learn to write, learn to know, learn to be confident, learn to improve and learn from zero to be hero. There is nothing to lose. Plus, you'll shall be good in the future.

New Home New Life

This starting is quite slow a bit. While I am busy to monitoring new home progress, I am about to leave myself management running by itself. It is OK for me as long as I still monitoring it. I just don't want to be chasing something that make what I've belong lost. It is not easy to grab something while holding mine strongly. Malay said "Yang dikejar tak dapat yang dikendung berciciran". I need to do it instead of think and decide only. Do what I've plan for this year. My focus this year is about my new home which is still in progress. When the time I live there is where is all start again, new life. The end of year 2012 onwards it will be new focus. Just wait it till Dec2012. A lot of challenges this year. It will definitely happens and I am going to make it. Success.

New Home, new life.

Going to 2012

I am already here, at the end of the year. There are few updates that supposed to be posted here but since there was no much time for me, I couldn't turn up with any interesting stories. By the way, lets moving forward positively. Later I will be sharing more of interesting story. This month is school holiday and a lot of activities have done and also need to be done. The highlight here is reminder for me to boost up my internal movement as maximum as possible. Syabas to me for the success of keeping the momentum until now. Next year is going to be my crazy year. Beginning of 2012, there is new home waiting for me. Just bought it and now is under pending for renovation. There will be more changes happen when the time I live there. My daughter age is more than 3 months starting Jan 2012, I want her to be growing perfectly as well as healthy. A lot more for me to know about next year agenda. The commitment also has increase but no worry because there will be a new planning for me to maintain the self financial. The progress of the 27 is still running under the target but it doesn't effect me too much at the current standing but it does to the future planning. Future planning is regards to year of 2012 planning. That what makes me worry. Anyway, I still can manage it as long as I am in the track, it is considered. The progress just showing clearly about my poor of improvement. When mentioned about 2012, it just makes me worry because I am realize that time is passing too fast now. I am about to entering the 29th year in my life. It is time clean up unnecessary things here and 2012, what will happen there? Just wait there and I am coming soon.

The27 (part 8)

It must be there already. The progress of it is nearly in the redzone. The target for this journey is to meet the floor of 70% achievement. But running in a year hasn't show any win over previous result. Yet, it goes down as it seen in graph activity. I told myself it supposed to be up there already but why? How? and what happen to me? I couldn't answer it for myself. I know you must be weird on me. You will ask me, what is it? I answer you, it is plan 27 I developed internally for myself to be strong against negative ideology and nastiness whisper from direct or silent interference of lifetime enemy. The enemy is everywhere. They exist without my notice. The more strong I am the more enemy they have sent. They are always against me until the end of the world. Not only me, but to all of you also. They had made promised to drag us to the hell. So, what I do now is declared lifetime war and fight them internally and eliminate their dens inside. That is why plan 27 is built for. Back to me, I am running this plan from sleep to sleep and religiously. It has few of basic elements installed into it. The elements I meant are regard to learning, self management and tabulation. For easy say, what I do is specifically back to the basic. I started from small to big, slow to fast and imagination to reality. What I've earned previously was from 10% to 50% achievement since year of 2007. Next after year 2010, I had placed new target over the previous achievement. But the main issue here is where am I now? Am I in between 50% to 70% achievement or not? Since lately I am feeling like left behind in many things, do something unmethodically, poor self management and down, the performance of the plan 27 might running under the target. This post is alarm for me to wake up immediately before it is too late. The journey is far away to go.

Morning Rain

Rain in the morning. I think it is less than 10 times a year to feel in Malaysia. It can be count. For me, I love morning rain no matter what day it falls. The panorama really hit me when the view quite blur covered by the rain and nearly goes white. It is definitely heavy rain here. Plus the weather is so cold. I don't need to climb up the hills to get this situation. Some of people, they might continue their sleep longer than usual when the rain makes their bed more comfort. But for me, I am not going to hide under the blanket because I don't want to missed this morning rain. Usually, I will be out to feel it or have my breakfast outside. When the clock shows time already in the middle of the morning, I will return to my bed and zzzz again. That is me.

The shadow of "Mistake"

Today is November 8th and today also I am going to update my blog for the second post of this month. Actually, there is nothing interesting that I could share here since I haven't experience any of happening events lately. I am not living in KL that I might have a lot things to share. This update is only regards to my path which a long the way is only a same thing happens. What happen? Yes! It is the same challenge that I had told here in previous post. Building the correct path won't be easy for me as well as people out there. I know my destination and I am able to draw the path but I couldn't follow it. Why? Because of there were a lot of other paths joined in and interfered. It would be difficult when confusion is conquering while travel in the path. That is how and where it begins, the mistake happens in my life. Sorry! I am writing about my life journey. Who read this post will be a lot of confuses in their head. But, importantly, I am telling here that I am not going to blame myself or anyone else for the mistakes I had before. I want to share something interesting happens because of that word "mistake". The view of other angle shows me what was right and what was wrong. This is proved that when the principle of my life, Islam (Back to the basic) applied into the mistake I had and the word that I called itself a "mistake" is turned to "gift". It is actually gift for me from Allah S.W.T. It might be my ultimate mistake in the matter of choosing the right way of the journey, but it doesn't means that I will lost forever. As long as I am staying with the basic of life, there will be another ways or another paths for me whichever is better than before. It taught me how to view matters of something in other angles. It is like when I look at one object on my standing, the shape is square and the result instantly installed into my mind without analyze further. My mind couldn't running out of its level to figure out the possibility full shape of the object. Actually, this matter is regards to the brain growth, knowledge and exposure. But, I don't need to rush to have all these, I just need to go back to the basic and utilize existing brain as maximum as possible. Later, I have learn it. I am able to view in different angles and figure out the shape of object just now is square at front view but turns to circle at the back. It is against my existing thought and logic about the object. Moral of the story here don't think that when I realized I have made mistake it doesn't means it was a mistake at all, there is actually something running behind of it. Whatever happens in this world must have its own good and benefit. For example, I had choose to stay in company A instead of change to company B although company B gave me a better offer. I regretted after few years later but actually, from that mistake, I am having new life here whereby I am married to beautiful wife, having beautiful baby, having myself stay near with my parents, having my own house, car and much more. These all the things that might be not belongs to me if I choose company B. I felt guilty of what I have done lately, I am not supposed to regret for any mistakes or challenges came cross at my path. That is lesson for me to correct my drawing in order to get smooth in the journey. If all on my own, the path I drew is straight at my eyes but the fact is deflected to the real failure. What I should do now is only draw a new path and continue my journey. Be positive for any decision I have made. Don't ever give up when I know it is a mistake.

Little wish from little heart

Salam,

People are busy managing their life and so like me. I am busy to think how to manage my life. Year is already to its end and vision of mine is fading away slowly. Yet, I am just sitting at the station while the train is transit so many times already albeit I am aware about it. I am weak as always. Nevermind! Hari Raya Aidiladha is tomorrow, so nothing more I could write here except my little wishes to all Muslim Selamat Menyambut Hari Raya Haji. I am celebrating it in the other side with festive. But indeed, poor me (it regards to something). Zzzzzzz

Setahun Berlalu

Maka, sejak dua atau tiga hari yang lepas genaplah setahun perkahwinan kami. Kebetulan pula pada dua minggu yang lepas kami dikurniakan anak perempuan yang teramatlah terindah anugerahnya. Tiadalah hadiah yang dapatkan ku berikan sehebat hadiah dari Ilahi. Tetapi yang pasti, janji akan ku kotakan. Bermulalah tahun kedua bagi kami untuk meneruskan hidup sebagai suami isteri. Segalanya telah pun bermula dan akan berkekalan selamanya. Amin.

My Beautiful Sunday

Morning blog's walkers! Yeah! Today is my beautiful day, beautiful sunday. I open a window and see thru my deepest eyes straight to the morning clouds. The clouds looks like going to blows up when the sun shine is heating it. The town is still sleep quietly, clean from traffic and noisy sound. The morning is still young. The panorama is really hit my deepest heart and soul. It is so wonderful indeed. Despite of being excited with the view, deepest inside me is still worries on what is actually I am waiting for. What makes my day become so beautiful is because I am waiting my wife for her delivery. She is going to give birth our first baby at anytime from now. Thanks to Allah SWT for His greatest gift ever to us. I pray for my wife and my baby everyday without missed any single of days. Inside me is hoping that my baby will born safely, healthy and perfectly. Same goes to my lovely wife. Her sacrifices are big as all moms in the world have done. Amin. My beautiful day is when the feeling of hapiness to be a father. I look up to the sky and feel all things is so wonderful and beautiful today. Plus, today is sixth eid and fourth sep, and also beautiful sunday. Whatever happens today, Selamat to my wife and my baby.

Puteri Nur Aliya

Alhamdulillah! Today is so beautiful day. My wife has successfully delivered our first baby today, 4th September 2011 at 4.35pm. New born of 2.9kg princess at Ar Ridzuan Medical Centre is really makes me excited, thankful and she is so like me. Welcome to the world my beautiful Puteri Nur Aliya. Alhamdulillah again and thanks to Allah SWT because she is healthy, perfect and safely delivered.

Alhamdulillah!